Flowing with Change

Revisiting my blog from summer 2025 when I made the decision to reduce my blogs to once at year on 1 January as an opportunity for reflection and sharing.

As always I hope by sharing moments of my life here and on my social media platforms, the content may resonate and support or encourage people with whatever they are navigating in life, as I know how at times it can feel a lonely path to walk.

Today I have come to realise writing an annual blog requires me to make notes as I move through the year! Moments happen that feel so profound, but then forgotten, especially when you are on a journey of self-work, processing and healing. I don't know about anyone else, but I see how the not so great times can be easier to recall than the happier ones. This is one reason I enjoy putting together my instagram reels. They are not an attempt to portray a certain lifestyle or to generate business, they are an invaluable memory jogger for me, and act as a video diary where I can revisit emotions I felt at the time which bring me joy, and also help me recognise my accomplishments during times I feel I am not making progress on my path. I also hope they help to inspire others living with chronic illness and anxiety, to realise we can overcome many things. Today I almost didn't write this blog, questioning what is the point? Will anyone read it? Worrying people will view me as inconsistent if I don't. I decided to go ahead and share my reflection on 2025. 2025 was a huge year of change and challenges for many of us, myself included.

In January I travelled to Belgium for Part 1 of specialist aqua training, after opening my Community Interest Company 2 years previous, with a view to opening my own private pool offering therapy sessions to support people on an emotional healing journey. Part 2 was due in September, but a painful issue with my leg significantly worsened to a point a client/friend gave me her shoes to wear as I was struggling to walk and I was unable to attend the training. My hope is I can improve my leg issue and complete the training in 2026, but currently that is questionable with how the condition has worsened even more. In the summer I made the sad decision to close the Community Interest Company as I could not find funding or people to support me on my mission to open a pool. My dream has not diminished though and I never say never. If it is meant, it will happen in the future. In the Spring after 10 years of traumatic and expensive dental experiences, a random stranger contacted me, which led to me travelling to europe for major jaw surgery, that extended if not saved my life. Still work in progress and I return this month all being well to assess where I am now at and What Next? I discovered how 12 days away from the world, no TV, no stress, wholesome food, sleep, animals around me and the feeling of trust and safety with my healthcare team brought huge health benefits. How to bring that in to every day life I have yet to work out! The £20,000 debt so far ontop of the £20,000 already spent and wasted in the UK causes me high anxiety, but I know you cannot place a price on life itself and I am so very grateful for that. To feel trust and safety with a care provider is a huge thing in my life after bad experiences. My health issues continue and some have worsened, but as always I have not given up and carry on searching for answers. I do not share as much online about that now, as we are all on our own unique health journey and I cannot give anyone an answer, as there is no one size fits all solution. I share what I do to help inspire others to also not give up, hoping it may lead them onto their own line of research and enquiry.

My 4 year journey of somatic exploration and healing alongside counselling continues, reaching new depths this year, as I have moved down the layers, now touching in on core lifelong wounds, one of the most excrutiating of experiences. My chosen path of healing has and continues to be one of the bravest things I think I have ever done, and that is saying something. It is certainly not for the faint hearted, is not all love and light lying on the floor having Kundalini awakenings, it is raw, real and messy. I walk my talk, have learned and continue to learn so much, which I then use as knowledge to support my clients also. I have reconnected to lost and forgotten parts of me, which then brings its own challenges, but the rewards are the best when you see how far you have come.

Summer 2025 I was excited to land at a new venue at The School of Bodywork, Gandy Street, Exeter, for my private healing work, sound baths and massages. I had been looking for a location in central Exeter for over a year. I love the venue and the person who runs it. Everthing feels in alignment, is flowing nicely at a pace right for me and bringing new opportunities, including a booking for a Festival in July. I turned 60 in August and to acknowledge my journey as a woman and Mum I embarked on a photoshoot here in Devon, some photos clothed and some not, yikes! It was a huge moment for me as someone with body confidence issues, but one I would thoroughly recommend.

It was the year hats became a 'thing' for me. I enjoy wearing them and expect it will be another year ahead of experimentation!

As a parent, both our children are now in relationships, so I embark on another chapter of transition in life which brings it's challenges, especially for us sensitives who feel everything (and more!). Over the year some people left my circle and at the same time new people moved in. I am much more accepting now that some people are with us for a brief moment, a season or a lifetime, they all bring valuable lessons to support our learning and personal growth.

Another big one for me this year was to deepen my understanding that we should never have to force things to make them fit. We may want something so bad, but maybe the timing is not right or maybe the world is not ready for what we have to offer. If things or people are meant for us, it will organically happen. I know personally that when those moments do happen, they feel magical and amazing. At the start of 2026 I have a new venue to launch in Teignmouth for my private therapy sessions and sound baths, which has been something I have wanted very much for some time now. More news to follow on my social media platforms soon. 2026 will also see the launch of 'Empower Thursdays' a meaningful yet fun monthly gathering for women age 55+ years. Those are some highlights from my last year. There were too many 'bits in between' to mention! As I reflect on those in my life now, family, friends, clients and how that circle in some areas has changed in this last year, I feel huge gratitude. I love my 'work' and want to say a massive thank you to everyone who has attended a private appointment or sound bath with me. Revisiting the title of this Blog 'Flowing with Change' - life is not a rigid structured timeline. There is unpredictability with twists and curves, waves and rapids, ebbs and flows. There are times we cannot fight it, we simply need to surrender and see where it takes us. I certainly have no idea where I am heading but am open and ready for it, whilst navigating the feeling of existing between realities.

Music remains a massive part of my life journey, it supports me in many ways. As always at the close of my blog I am sharing a music track of whatever is resonating with me at this time. We cannot expect anyone to rescue us, but having someone walking alongside us in not just the good, but the not so good times is a massive support. It is not needy, it is simply compassionate and the world needs more of this. 'Wintering'

'In January we rest.

January isn't a New Year, it's the deep middle of winter. There's very little light, very little warmth and not a lot of spare energy going around.

Yet it is the month we're sold fresh starts, big plans, and 'new year, new me' energy.

'Wintering' is the inward season, when life slows, energy gathers, and nothing is meant to be rushed. For most women, Christmas wasn't restful. It was effort, planning, making it magical. By midlife the body knows rest isn't something to apologise for. So when January arrives and motivation is low, that's 'wintering' doing it's work. This month is for going inward. Hot tea. Early nights. Letting winter be winter. In January we rest.'

Final thought - Give someone a smile, a hello, a hug whenever you can. You never know the difference it will make. Human touch and connection is everything. Much Love.

Jenny x